Back in December, I was facing a trial that I never thought I would have to face. I was in a relationship - engaged to be married actually. To some degree, I thought everything about this relationship was good - it was right and of God. And to a different degree, I knew in the back of my mind and deep in my heart that there was something missing from the relationship, but I didn't want to admit it. The plans had already been made, the dress bought, the date set, etc. I could not imagine canceling on this wedding. I was being incredibly stubborn, but also did not want to back out on my commitment. In all actuality, I really loved this guy as much as I knew how. I wanted to be with him. I thought it was God's plan for me to be with him. My then-fiancee had slightly different feelings. In December, he confessed to me that he was not ready to be married - he wasn't even ready to be engaged, and he simply was not sure I was the one for him. He said he needed time to get his relationship right with the Lord and to figure things out. So of course, I had a lot to figure out as well. Obviously, this relationship came to an end. Thankfully, God pulled me into Himself and I sought the Lord for strength in this dilemma. As you may guess, I sought solice in 1 Corinthians 13 - the "Love chapter" of the Bible. I had read this passage hundreds of times in my life, but never did it hit me the way it did on December 12, 2010. I even wrote it all out (just forewarning you that this could be very lengthy):
1 Corinthians 13: 4-8a (broken down, piece by piece)
"Love is patient. Love is kind. Love does not envy. Love does not boast. Love is not proud. Love is not rude. Love is not self-seeking. Love is not easily angered. Love keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil. Love rejoices with the truth. Love always protects. Love always trusts. Love always hopes. Love always perseveres. Love never fails."
I have always loved this passage because, like many girls, i have looked forward to having a romantic love like this since a very young age. However, it is only now (ie. December), as I frantically struggle to hold on to this relationship, that I have come to a more full understanding of this passage on love.
God = Love. It says so several times throughout the Bible (specifically 1 John 4:8)
Jesus = God. This is also confirmed by the scriptures (specifically John 1:1-2).
Therefore, this passage is a perfect description of the character of Jesus Christ, who is God the Son. This is perfect love because Jesus Christ is perfect.
This passage is also descriptive of the way Christ loves the church. And since marriage is meant to be a picture of Christ's love for the church (see Ephesians 5), this passage is descriptive of the way we ought to love one another - especially in intimate relationships.
Love is patient. How often do we lose patience with one another? Especially with those we claim to love most. This first sentence hits me hard as I struggle to wait patiently for this decision from my [then] fiancee, as to whether or not we move forward with our engagement or not. Let's face it - I struggle with patience. Period. However, if I truly love [this man], I must be patient and wait while he seeks counsel and tries to figure everything out.
Love is kind. This one is hard for me as well because I did not grow up experiencing a very kind form of love. I grew up with sarcasm. i grew up not really sharing feelings or discussing emotions. I saw very few outward expressions of love in my own family. I was caught between what I saw in my family and the unrealistic fantasies of movies. It is only through Biblical teaching on relationships that I have come to learn anyting about showing love through kindness.
Love does not envy. This one is currently extremely difficult for me as I see so many of my friends as happy as could possibly be in their seasons of engagement. Everything seems so perfect for all of them while things haven't been quite so easy and perfect for me. I'll admit that I have been envious of their love, happiness, and the elation that both members of each party share.
Love does not boast and is not proud. I am one of the most prideful people I have ever known. I can't even begin to tell you how proud and boastful I became as soon as I got back to Augusta with my sparkly diamond engagement ring. While I feel like some of it was justified in that I was so excited to get to marry (who I thought was) my best friend, who is a wonderful guy from a great family, I can't deny that much of it was sinful pride; that "Hey! I'm getting married! I have a 1+ carat diamond on my hand, and my life is great" attitude.
Love is not rude. How often do we take out our frustrations and anger on our spouses or significant others? They are the closest ones to us and thus end up becoming the brunt of our stress and ill feelings. Sure, this is normal, but that doesn't make it right. If stress or frustrations come up between partners, these conflicts should be handled with gentleness and kindness.
Love is not self-seeking. Now this is the kicker. Love is supposed to be selfless - sacrificial even. God sacrificed His own Son out of love for us (John 3:16, Romans 5:8). So why is it so hard for us to put some of our own needs second to those of our partners? Love is not just some mushy-gushy feeling - it is a choice. It is the choice to put ourselves and our own needs and wants below those of our partners - to give of ourselves in order to better love and meet the needs of our partners.
Love is not easily angered. Because our partners are the closest to us, they are often the brunt of our feelings- whether those feelings are good, bad, or even ugly. However, because this person is so close, we should never react in anger. Anger is an ugly feeling that brings out the worst in us. Sure, it is bound to come out every now and then, but we must harness that anger and work through it so as not to lash out and cause damage to the relationship. Think about it - each and every one of us sins against the Lord every day, but does He lash out in anger? No - instead, He sacrificed His Son on the cross so that we could have salvation and forgiveness.
Love keeps no record of wrongs. How often do we get into deep conversations with our loved ones (of the not-so-pleasant sort) and start bringing up past frustrations or events in order to play the blame game? What about forgive and forget? God could surely put each o fus in our place if He started pulling out all of our past wrongs every time we get frustrated...
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. The truth - now there's a concept! Is it still the trusth if details have been left out? That's an argument that has gotten plenty of people in trouble before. But in relationships, the
whole truth is vital to the stability of the relationship and the couple's ability to communicate. it is extremely hurtful if part of the truth is left out and found out later - much more hurtful than if the whole truth were made known to begin with.
Love always protects. Physically and emotionally. As partners in a relationship, we are supposed to love each other, which includes being sensitive to one anothers' feelings. Christ gave His life for us in order to protect us from the eternal death that we truly deserve. As Christians, we are to protect each other from falling deeper into sin. We ought to protect each other from temptations.
Love always trusts. I'll admit that I am the nosiest person in the world. I am such an information seeker. I like to be in the know. This so often gets me in trouble because it leads me to be less trusting. However, this goes back to rejoicing with the truth. Where there is evil, anger, and bitterness, there is no trust. But love brings about trust - the peace in knowing that your partner will not forsake you, just as God promises through the Holy Spirit.
Love always hopes. Where there is love, there is a future. God's love is eternal. God promises us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). Love hopes because it is kind and those who experience love want the best for each other. When love is genuine and Christ-like, there is hope for tomorrow, hope for the future, and hope for the best. Love lookes forward - and that is hope.
Love always perseveres. For better or for worse. For richer or for poorer. In sickness and in health. I believe these traditional wedding vows come from this part of the passage. Perseverance means never giving up - sticking it out and working through every situation no matter how tough it seems to be. God doesn't give up on us. Instead, He gives us undeserved grace. Sometimes, this is necessary in our human relationships. Love doesn't just stop or go away because something goes wrong. Love isn't easy. It takes a lot of work. But love - true, genuine, Godly love - perseveres through it all.
Love never fails. Never. No matter what. Even when we commit the worst of sins (which God sees all sins as equal anyway), God still loves us. His love never fails. So why do we so often let our human relationships fail?
We, as humans, are completely incapable of loving like this on our own. It is only when we are fully reliant on God to love through us that we can show this genuine, Christ-like love to others. This love is so much more than feelings or emotions. It is a decision. It is a sacrifice. It is the greatest thing anyone can do, give, or receive. My human self so often gets in the way of God - I put so many things, ideas, and emotions in the way instead of simply allowing God to love others through me. I am but a vessel for God to use. God - please use me. Please love through me because I am incapable of loving this way without You. I can't do this on my own. I need You - now more than ever - to show me how to love like You love.